Originally Posted by Britney
If he 'has no regrets' why do you regret for him?
shrug---Sort of surprised at the 'hypersensitivity'--somehow I crushed his ego? Very surprised that he didn't think it would bother me to never hear from him again in college--and that it wouldn't bother me that he married someone who was 'clearly much better' than me. So why would he want to see me again=---I didn't meet his standards--I know I am not worthy of someone like him. How is it that he wouldn't think that I understood that?
'I have 2 kids, an exciting military career and I'm selling Real Estate in Pensacola'---close to a perfect life. I am certain he doesn't lack for attention there---he has the 'Hot Babe' and the boat and the weekend home in Destin.
What could it matter what I thought. My world had truly just fallen to pieces---and there was a legitimate reason that I couldn't be perky and happy at the exact moment he 'found me'. It was the 2nd Christmas after my brother's death and my mother was depressed/90 years old--and my uncle was dying---in a nursing home---my cousin's breast cancer had returned---I'm sorry I wasn't festive enough. I'm sorry that I am the sort of person that believes that it is best to clear out the cobwebs before continuing in the same pattern. If I don't say--'That hurt my feelings'--and pretend it did not--that is not exactly honest. Resentment builds.
He has a Master's in Counseling and has taught Psychology at a University--I truly thought he would be able to cope.
Something else is going on--whether I ever know or not--I am certain of that.
After he said 'I have no regrets'--I said--'Well, you always told me the truth before so I'll just have to learn to accept that.' What else should I have said?